Life, The Ultimate Game.

Emo-ness

2008-10-22T07:07:00.000-07:00

Life recently has been very down...i feel like there is totally no point living anymore, not in the sense of wanting to die now but more of i got no aim in life, no main focus in life...maybe i just haven't found it yet may it be that something or someone, although i feel more towards a someone. liking someone that is way out of your league and you know you never get is damm tough... you just cant tell the person that you like her but its hard to keep it in sometimes you just want to shout it out... just wish life can end faster and get this over with...

anyway, yesterday on yahoo news, it stated that a new attraction called Transformers is coming to singapore, kinda excited cause i liked the transformers movie, and since its the same people building the attraction, maybe it can be of the same standard...dunno maybe it will just close down like the DHL balloon lol, oh wells gotta wait for 2011 before its open so till than, hope they do a gd job building it.

Finally

2008-10-21T07:06:00.000-07:00

lol ive finally found a new blog skin and changed to it after delaying for god knows how long, though its abit girly lol i like the tree it fees artistic to me and that is why i chose it...im not turning gay or nething yo haha, update next time.

17/7/08 Post...

2008-07-17T09:48:00.000-07:00

Have not updated in quite awhile...haha i can hardly remember what i have been up to since the last time i updated, so will just update what i can remember haha. Well i remember meeting up with Rach and Jon last Sat, was great seeing them again especially Jon whom i havent seen in such a long long time haha had fun with them going around and having lunch. Than fast forward to today haha went to Cathay after sch to meeting Kenny and Terence to watch THE DARK KNIGHT!!!! OMFG that movie is awesome... the director is just so brilliant and amazing everyone should go watch it and the actor who played the joker (i dunno whats his name) He is amazing and he will definately be missed... anyhow after the movie haha was surprised to meet Brayden,Paul,Bernie and Brian who watched the movie in the same hall haha was super random but was great to see them again :P

well, past week plus been very moodless... i know something is bothering me, i think i know what is it but i just cant get it out of my head, been trying to keep myself busy so i dun think about it but its somehow still affecting me.

anyhows have been going gym with Marc and Terence haha super tired @_@ went to Novena Club with terence on wed and saw Marie and kriti haha also havent seen them for quite awhile so was great seeing them haha though we didnt talk :X oh wells cya peepz gonna sleep.... or at least try too....

TIRED AH!!!

2008-07-06T19:08:00.000-07:00

WASSUP PEOPLE!!! HOW CHA ALL DOING CAUSE I KNOW IM FREAKING DEAD TIRED....OMGZ lawl im feeling the effects of lack of sleep... almost feel down on the way to school today and can feel a lack of energy in my body..sadness lawl anyhows, Sat was so bzi, or so i feel haha, choing gym with marc, had dinner, signed up for california fitness LAWL FINALLY A REAL MEMBER!!! :P than rushed home bath than go meet Alan, Alice, Nigel to go club. wanted to go zouk but was full house so we ended up at Double O and guess what it was Retro night AKA ANDRE NIGHT!!! hahahaha was quite fun though. I got home at 5.30am than slept at 6.15am woke up at 9.15am than went to church.... reason why im so tired haha. anyhows service was great than after that we went to queensway shoppin center to buy some stuff after that went my house to play mahjong, me, dre, marc, eileen and we found out some damm interesting news from andre that night haha...

ANDRE FINDS JOHN CUTE!!!!

haha
anyway in class now gtg, think will Pon and come back for UT later

LaLaLa

2008-07-03T19:17:00.000-07:00

This week was a very tiring and tough one to get through and yes its finally FRIDAY!!! the weekend is on the horizon and i can't wait for it. Well, it amazes me how Singaporeans can be so obvious in what their doing and even if their doing something that is obviously making fun of someone or laughing at someone they are not able to hide it even if they try. Earlier this week i was on the train going back home after school and while on the train there was a boy who seems alittle mentally unsound, he was holding to 5dollar notes and laughing at it. I felt sorry for that boy because he alr has a burden to bear and yet nobody sympathizes him but instead, makes a mockery at him. While on the train, there was a girl who kept staring at him and i could see her laughing at him, its so rude to do such a thing, better yet, when that boy got off, i saw a couple laughing out so loud, that i got very annoyed... I already had a bad impression of the general population of Singaporeans and this has just enhanced my hate for them. Seriously.... you wont see this happening in the USA, in America and Aust, ppl are generally helpful and not rude. Singapore is such a far cry away from US and Aust in terms of manners haiz...

Also this week, my maid for 8 years left. It was a very sad thing for me, i mean even though she is a domestic worker, she was part of my family because she has been with us for so long and when i was returning home after she left, the house felt very empty and lonely without her, but i should be happy that she is finally back with her family.

Well, recently i have also started going to the gym with marcus and i feel that is it helping me out alot and i actually enjoy it haha as well as swimming and other sporting stuff... anyway gtg ppl cyaz

EMO

2008-06-30T05:17:00.000-07:00

I found a gal,just got to know her recently through a friend. I saw her months ago, but i just got to know her recently, when i saw her months ago, inside me a feeling exploded, shes the 2nd girl who ever made me feel that way... i knew that i liked her very much and could spend all my time with her...but things were never meant to be, she alr had a guy in her life and even if i waited shes way outta my league and i am doubtful it would ever happen...its best to stay alone from now on, never to hurt myself again...alone and away is the best...Single 4 Life!

TIRED AH!!!!

2008-06-29T21:40:00.000-07:00

The Weekend was quite busy although didn't really plan to do much this week. Sat went to gym with Marc haha, been using the California's fitness 2 week trial to go to the gym, i think that after the trial i will be signing up for the membership. I find the gym quite okay and it suits my purpose and its close by whahaha thats the main thing. Well after gym, went to Far east Plaza for Chicken rice before going toa payoh to hang for abit, when Marc had to leave for his Pro-Drumming practice, i went home. Thats the end of my sat hahahaha

Sunday was fun filled, went to church first than me,maki,Marc,Clarice went to eat lunch, after that went to buy John's bday cake, following that we headed to my house to slack and wrap the present. After that, we went to John's place to set up the BBQ and stuff. the whole night was quite fun with funny things happening especially in the pool wahahah lawl hahaha i dun have the pictures now because Andre has not sent it to me but when i have it, i will load it up onto facebook. whahahaha damm fun lawl thats all about my weekend lawl haha, cya all and tag yea.

EmoDays Are Back ....

2008-06-26T22:54:00.000-07:00

slept at 10pm yesterday, ended up waking up waking up at 3am and drifting in and out of sleep till 6.30am... damm fucked up... cant stop thinking about her.... i feel that the days of moodless are back....cant believe it i hate it but i cant stop it haiz.... need to find things to keep my occupied... anyway sorri i forgot to say Eileen reminded me too and Andre had his first clubbing experience at double O a few weeks back haha and i dare say he has a side that ppl have not seen be4 lawl so dun get fooled by him... haha...

haiz.... why do i keep liking the wrong girls...zzzz

FINALLY A UPDATE LAWLS

2008-06-25T17:41:00.000-07:00

Haha thx for marc and dre bugging me and saying i blog at least once a month i decided to finally post an update of what we actually did this month of june haha (depends on what i remember la hahaha)... hmmm we had alot of outings this month but i cant seem to remember it now lawl update later :X

Updated

after thinking through i only remember about 3 main events hahaha

First, Paul's Bday, haha thx for inviting me man, had lots of fun. we went for dinner at some buffet place a taka followed by going to clinic to have a drink and than MOS. Paul opened 2 bottles and we got into the VIP members lounge haha how cool lawl.

Second, went to science center with Dre, we were freaking bored and well Singapore really has nothing to do so we decided to relive my childhood and since andre has never visited Science center, we decided to go there. Had lots of fun and also alot of "Views" there surprisingly hahaha lawl

Third, Went to zoo with Maki,Marc,Andre,Isaac. was super fun la haha no matter how lame the place is, if the company is good it will be fun, i had an enjoyable time humping all the animals over there hahaha all the pics are in my facbeook so if ya want to view can add it hahaa....

anyway ill see if i can remember anything else, if i can ill update later....in class now... SIANZ!!!

SIck~_~

2008-05-04T04:32:00.000-07:00

feeling freaking sick now... i also dunno how i got sick but my necks achin, feel like puking and i feel dizzy zzz what a way to spend the weekend... life has been getting very sickening... ive started getting very depressed recently why also i am clueless... oh well its just LIFE i guess =_="" recently bought a new pair of shoes haha but i cant upload a photo cause of some freaking software problem with my phone... cant transfer it to my PC... anyway feeling terrible now think ill just go sleep more @_@ hey maybe ill die in my sleep that would be just great!!! haha .....

It's Been A LONG LONG time :X

2008-04-23T08:46:00.000-07:00

hey all, lawl decided to revive my blog lawl, probably update it as much as i can i guess haha... oh well these past few weeks has been quite okay bah had fun times, down times and life is worthless times.... i guess the most was the life is worthless haha for some lame crapped up reason... oh well lets see what i did this month :X

First off, my bday haha, im glad that the ppl i invited came or at least most of them. Had a great time but kinda messed my place up abit haha lawl, Thx for the fun time and the presents ya all got me k :) THX THX THX haha

after that, sch started lawl, kinda sux when sch starts a few days after ur bday, u totally wont feel in the mood to do any work lawl... anyway 3 weeks has passed and only left class early once whahaha accomplishment hahaha... my new class, was quiet at 1st but i guess now its starting to get better, 12 more weeks so i guess should be quite okay lawl... today went for my driving, the instructor has his feet on the brake and hands on the hand brake la @_@ lawl am i that bad??? well i drove into the wrong lane once, almost crashed his car 3 times so haha u decide lawl...

Doing this blog again, was actually quite sad.. i wanted to use this blogskin THIS ONE cause it was important and meaningful to me but guess it wasnt meant to be @_@ oh well kk all cya :P

W0W

2008-04-02T09:53:00.000-07:00

Wow lawl, when was the last time i posted sia hahaha but cause some ppl asked me to update haha ill start updating again but no promises that it will be on a regular basis hor haha lawl, maybe when sch start ill use the time in school to post wahahha lawl... anyway life, hasnt changed much anyway still just hanging with same old friends, playing some games here and there and stuff haha, my bday is coming soon, well in a day i guess haha, hopefully wont be that boring, those ppl who spend it with me :X...anyway im at Marc's place now, chilling cause couldnt go home cause no bus and stuff oh well haha fun fun fun anyway. anyway will update more after sat, cause bzi, try to get some pics bah hahaha, cya all or well the few who are reading this

Finally Posting

2008-02-14T13:15:00.000-08:00

Havent Blogged in such a long time... it has been a very few weird weeks and i feel that my life has changed so much as compared to how i have been in the past... one thing that has changed in me is my ability to feel happy for people or such. in the past, when my friends told me something good has happened to them, i would really feel happy inside of me, but nowadays i dun feel anything anymore... it seems like all the feelings in me are gone...i feel like a zombie now just living cause i cant kill myself and i have also become very blur, not aware of my surroundings and changes... sux so badly... haiz... cant even sleep nowdays, its 5.18am on friday the 15th of Feb and im still awake lawl haha how to go on surviving like this. i swore to myself that she would never make my life difficult but see now i cant even sleep, concentrate to do anything or do any SHIT I AM JUST SO FED UP WITH LIFE!!!!... haiz i dunno why im typing this or what i should be doing anymore....

YAYZZZ!!!!

2008-01-23T22:11:00.000-08:00

Haha, skipped sch yesterday LOL haha met Marc and Dre @ City hall area, walked ard and chilled haha had lotsa fun and stuff, inside secret rite marc and dre :P ahaah lol, anyway was lookin for my CNY stuff, couldnt find anything but i found a pair of shoes that i actually liked, its kinda outstanding and its yellow but i liked it alot @_@ haha, anyway today i skipped agian and im at Dre's hse today with HuiFang LOL and YAY I GOT C6 FOR MY MATHS!!!!!!! i know its abit low but well my math aint gd and C6 is gd for me haha @_@ YAY!!! anyway ill post some pics of the shoe below, haha

SCh Sianz

2008-01-22T16:38:00.000-08:00

Sch is getting so boring... i find it so hard to want to stay in school now, just wish it would end sooner... haiz... cant wait for the long holidays... past few days have been weird, i remember 2 days ago in sch i was in a very crappy and angry mood, i also dunno why thats the thing =_="" well i got through the day anyway haha, than yesterday was a sad one... dunno why either... haiz im feeling like so messy and confused now... today wake up kept thinking i wanna PON I WANNA PON!!!! ahahahhahahahaha sch damm sianz, nvm look bright side gonna end soon but than OMG OLEVEL RESULTS 2MORROW!!! but i believe ill do fine because i have faith :P haha.... anyway cya peepz, waiting for class to start now...

Blog Again???

2008-01-21T18:15:00.000-08:00

Haha, I am so bored @_@ so i decided to make a new blog since i found meself a new skin haha, suits aint it :P lawls, anyway sch started but its soooo boring!!! ahhahahaha anyway cant wait, 1week plus more before whahhaa 10weeks break!!! WOOHOO... but dunno what to do though :X work, slack or ??? aiya so much free time dunno what to do LOL... anyway in class now cya ppl